But what ever happened that killed your confidence, it will all be better! So dont give up! =D

8 and a half years of abandonment, isolation, being left to rot and treated like I don't exist... that's what killed it...     "I am Darkness, BWA HA HA HA HA!"

i so know that me, phantom and yoshi have talked about this before.   think back biddy everything i said before still applies.'Yes I know I'm weird, and yes it is great fun.'

I don't know... what are you gonna do with me????    "I am Darkness, BWA HA HA HA HA!"

Well, 8 and a half years worth of damage is gonna take a long time to repair you know...     "I am Darkness, BWA HA HA HA HA!"

yeah, but then some arse hole always has to come along and drag it back down. i am isolated, rejected and discimnated where ever i go to.     "I am Darkness, BWA HA HA HA HA!"

well, from what 8 and a half years has taught me, is that rejection will follow you, where ever you go.... ( i know you're gettin' sick of this. how do you think i feel? I want this to stop as badly as any of you guys but i mean, what can i do against all of these people who descriminate me left right and center? i can't do anything without someone who will promise me that they will help me until the end. physically being here that is).        "I am Darkness, BWA HA HA HA HA!"

Well, mainly i think it's because of my autism... it's the one thing that has stopped me from doing things in life. the only good thing that it's given me is a good imagination...       "I am Darkness, BWA HA HA HA HA!"

Well yes, i have done that, but it still doesn't boost my confidence... the only thing that tells me is that i can do scripts and nothing more with my life. everyone else has many different talents. I'm only a writer, which i think bores the women senseless.     "I am Darkness, BWA HA HA HA HA!"

If you really feel that you don't have any confidence in yourself then you should find something that you really love to do... and don't care what others think!! ( I know that's hard... but if you can then you will be alot happier) Becuase most of us lack confidence, we manifested the idea that if you act the way you want to be, you will transform... sometimes that works, but if not you can try to change the way you see yourself... or maybe do something you wouldn't normally do to change the way others think of you! ~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~I'm possitive that your a great person... And anyone in this forum (or at your school, or where ever) would love to be your friend once you let them get to know you!! ^_^<3   You don't have to be affraid to open up... "fear is often greater than the danger itself"

I've opened up many times to people at my secondary school, college and i think i've done it at uni, but they always still treat me like a desease that has ti be avoided all of the time. no matter what i do or try, no one seems to like me or wants to be friends with me (like proper friends). it's soul destroying guys, ad 8 and a half years of this crap can have a massive affect on people, espcially me.      "I am Darkness, BWA HA HA HA HA!"

are you feeling better today? Will i've told you many times already that you're a nice guy so stop being too hard on yourself... look around, you've got lots of people in here trying to cheer you up and boost your confidence.. i know we're halfway around the world from you and we're all like from who knows which farthest region of the earth.. and like you told me it's not any consolation coz we aren't there physically.. but hey the thought still counts.. and i hope you'll think about what all of us have told you...i know you've been through hell for a long time but don't let it ruin your entire life... you're still young and have so many years ahead of you...and i know discrimination really makes a person feel bad (i know coz i've been through hell with it too till i was in highschool, i'm lucky they laid off for quite a bit now)... but who cares about what others think of you.. it's your life, not theirs... it's your choices, you call the shots... no one is perfect and you have got to learn to live with your own imperfections... be more confident... believe in yourself... like yourself... be yourself... love yourself... coz if you won't, then who else will... so hold your head up high, my friend!   Happiness is more than an emotion... it's also a choice... you can choose to be happy if you really want to.. find happiness in yourself and hold it in your hands... look around you, happiness can never be totally lost.. as long as you know where to find it... life can never promise to be always fair and happy.. but you can always do something about it...i know it's easier said than done.. and it won't help you in a blink of an eye coz changes don't work that way... but all i'm saying is that.. don't give up~Crescent"..people get lonely coz they build walls instead of bridges..."

how's it going today? you  feeling any better?  this whole massive time dxiference really sucks by the way.  it's kinds hard to have a conversation with a friend when you're half a world away.'Yes I know I'm weird, and yes it is great fun.'

Well, if you saw my personal message on MSN, they you'll get the picture...     "I am Darkness, BWA HA HA HA HA!"

that didn't sound good the way you said it...    "I am Darkness, BWA HA HA HA HA!"